I Shared My Deepest and Darkest Secret

I shared my deepest and darkest secret with my best friend, Rachel.
I have actually put the gun in a place that is not easy to get at, so I will have the time to reconsider, if it should come to that. I once had it in my mouth and at the very last minute, changed my mind - the phone rang and it gave me that last second to think.
I became a little sadder today when she said that she felt betrayed by me and she fully trusted and believed me in the Berry Tree. Many of the things I said have turned out to be un-true, but at the time I said, what I said, I fully believed it to be true. Nutronix made so many changes that most could not comprehend or keep up with. As I understand, they were purely based on legal problems that were brought upon them by other MLM's.
They promised a guarantee and now they can't keep their promise. I and many others, have been betrayed by Nutronix, I really didn't betray Rachel or anyone else in my down line. The company betrayed us all and now I and many others are dealing with the domino effect.
It really hurt when she said that - I had to take a moment to recover from my emotions.
I have decided to forgive her for that statement as she is under a lot of stress due her condition.